Crumb Trail

Dear Qwerty,

I can't wait to go home!

Why does it take so long for all these misery to go away?? I can't wait anymore. I want to go home. After all, even if I scream about this 29 times a day, a still have to wait for another two weeks. And while I'm here , there are CMM111 and LLC200 waiting to wave me goodbye. Get out of the way!

Day's Eye

Dear Qwerty,

Do you know that daisies sleeps at night and blooms only during the day?

Daisy to me is the prettiest flower in the world. I'd rather have a daisy of my eye than an apple.

I can't recall the time I start to fall in love with those little white polka dots on the grass. They're like little smiling faces (though I never know where the lips are) that makes me feel happy whenever I look at them. I only like one type of daisy; which is the ox-eye daisy. Some people took them as weeds, but I think daisies makes a merry carpet on the lawn. I love the way the sunny center brighten up its satiny white petals, and how the whole bloom contrasts sharply with its dark green stems and leaves.

Why would people want to cut them off? If they don't want daisies they should just tell me to collect them from their lawn and I'll put those fresh flowers in my room. I'll make big bunches of them. If my room can no longer fit, I'll put them around the house. If the house is stuffed to the threshold with daisies, I'll cut off the stems and arrange the flowers in my room to make daisy-mat, daisy-bed, daisy-pillow, daisy-everything! Can you imagine sleeping on a bed of ox-eye daisy? Well I'd like to dream of that tonight, I'll make sure I have plenty of daisies to make daisy-sofas and daisy-curtains too!

How can anyone say a field of ox-eye daisies is not the most charming sight in the world? Why do people prefer roses over daisies?

Roses smells like perfume; I think daisies smell like summer clouds. Roses takes your breath away; daisies enlighten my spirit. Roses speak of burning desire; daisies remind me that being happy is the most important thing in life. After all, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, and in my eyes, ox-eye daisies are the pearls of the land.

Dearie, I want a big bunch of ox-eye daisies for my birthday. I'll get a tall, clear vase, and put them there. Till then... :)

"It's Sunday". Really?!

Dear Qwerty,

Omg, the time simply flies by!

I've been into a roller-coaster of being well and down with fever again. These few days I kept having fever, then by whatever means managed to get better, and then after feeling so confident that I had completely recovered, the fever came back. Last night it was quite bad, I had to sleep at 8. When I wake up this morning (around 3.30), I suddenly realised that it was Sunday, and I had done virtually nothing for my 3 papers coming this Tuesday. I hope this fever will go away very quickly. Even now, while I'm writing to you, I feel that it is worsening and I can fall back to sleep anytime (whoa! this sounds so serious! lol..).

Anyway my dear, do wish me well. I think the paracetamol helps only momentarily. Oh ya, the fever worsen at night, does that indicates anything? H1N1? ngeee~~

Right Qwerty, I will write to you again soon. You know, I miss you more when I'm sick. :)

Sleepy Head

Dearest Qwerty,

How are you doing? Do you know that I miss you lots?

Dearie, I got lots of things to tell you just now. But now that I'm here, err.........? haha sorry dear, I don't feel like talking much anymore. But I think I should write something, since I went into the trouble of logging in to Blogger.

Yesterday the old friend I mentioned in the last post did call me. I'm glad that we're still friends. I didn't have much to talk about, lucky that he's quite talkative lol. But I hope the next time we talk to each other, it is for something that need to be talked about, like the real purpose for the invention of remote communication (sounds big?). It's not that I don't like to have a casual chat with him, but he insisted to let him do the calling, so I feel quite (in fact, VERY...) uneasy when we talk (realising that I'm draining his credits).

Oh, I got something more important to tell you - I've been sleeping the whole day like a hibernating grizzly! Let us see; I opened my eyes at 10 am, cuz my friend wanted to know when should we go out for lunch. Right after I replied, I dozed off again. 11 am, I wake up for real (though every step away from my bed is a resistance), took a shower, and went out for lunch. I bought NST and Kosmo, read both of them until 3pm, and at 6.30, found out that I had been asleep among the papers. My head is still aching now from having too much sleep in the day.

Other than that, I got another 3 papers next week, and I read practically nothing. What am I going to write in the answer sheet huh? My dream chronicles?? Anyway I plan to be a good girl after this. Since I've been sleeping all day long, I'm quite sure that I won't be able to sleep tonight. Maybe I could use some time to do some revision? (But my head is aching and I do feel quite sleepy now, there are possibilities that I would go to sleep again. I hope I'm not sick, sleeping too much usually indicates that I am going to have a fever.)

Alright dear, I feel as if I had spent 3 hours to write to you today. Perhaps I should stop here. Qwerty, why do you never write to me? You are so like Green!

Till then, bye! :)

Yay!!

Hi Qwerty!

I've done with my major paper!

But I got another one coming up..hehe.. But I'm still feeling glad; a quarter of my sem-end burden has been lifted from me. I'm happy not because I did so well in it; I was just glad that I don't have to think about it anymore.

The questions are not too difficult nor too easy, and I'm partly confident with my answers. But I enjoyed every second of it. I hope (and pray) that I would get good grade for this paper. A- perhaps? :) I can't get A for my coursework is just A-, so A- is good enough. Yeah!!

I'm going to have a rest tonight, besides, an old friend of mine wanna have a chat with me. I wonder what he has to say after such a long time haha. Anyway, I hope it's something that wont ruin my starry mood at the moment (lol).

Oh ya, around 8 I want to try packing some of my stuff to see if it will fit into the box. If it wont, I'll have to get another box (which is very troublesome). I can't wait to go home~~~! XD

Bye dearie, talk to you later! :D

My world,

My truth.

My universe.

My haven in my merry verse.

It welcomes you,

With open arms.

You're flattered by its mirthful charms.

To Regret and To Forget

Hi Qwerty,

I have mixed feelings; but more to the positives.

Actually, yesterday I had a mind to write about my disappointment for my first paper. I was so disappointed for I knew the exact answer, but I had a very poor time management to write it all down. I've wasted my time on questions that I'm not so confident at. And apparently had as well wasted my effort for the second section which I should have scored. Anyway, I got over it today and went to eat Portuguese tart and spaghetti with my friend (lol).

But before that we had a discussion for tomorrow's paper, which is my major. I hope I will do very well in it. I want get As for at least 4 papers this semester. Since I had screwed up my first paper, I want to do well in others. I will memorize things that need to be memorized tonight, and be ready for tomorrow. I hope and pray that God will help me again. I want to be a hardworking person that is independent and responsible.

That's it for now, I'll tell you how I feel about tomorrow's paper after the adrenaline hours. But no promises..hehe..

Wish me luck and see you again! :)

Hot Chocolate and Final Examination

Hi Qwerty,

It's been quite long.

As I had mentioned before, I will be having my final exam for this sem next week. I'm currently doing some revision for its sake. I wish I could get another 3.5, for I really would like to apply for JPA this time. PTPTN is not bad, but I need to pay back, and that's something that not everyone can do and like. Besides that, I want to have it so that I don't have to rely on my family, especially my brother. I think he works hard for the family. Well he never mentioned it but, you know, it's something that you can either see, or feel it. If I have it, they wont have to throw in any cash for my study. Besides, I just want to make them happy. I want them to know that they had not wasted their money and effort on me. I want to score another 3.5++, and I want to make it a reality. I pray that God will help me.

Err..for the hot chocolate thing, I don't feel like talking about it anymore. Let's leave it for another time. :)

Bye Qwerty, and pray for me. :)

Twist and Turn

Dear Qwerty,

It's official; I'm going to make pretzel.

Qwerty, whatever would happen at home, I am definitely going to make pretzels. I've found a very nice and easy recipe for pretzel at AllRecipes.com, and while people there are raving about how the pretzels they made turned out better than Auntie Anne's, I'm not going to stay quiet here and just watch. Those pretzels are going to appear in the house and everyone must finish them, it's compulsory.

Yeah, there are a lot of research to be made. But first comes first, I must review my lessons and prepare for the exam.

See you!

The Vanishing Point

Dear Qwerty,

I had a nice day, although it began quite badly.

In the morning I had some rush-hours to complete our report and for the presentation. But it had a happy ending. I was quite satisfied with everyone's presentation and we did manage to complete the presentation. In fact, after all the hustle-bustle had gone away, we even planned to visit the Butterfly Park after the exam. That was what I could call a sweet ending.

Then I went to the mall with another friend of mine, a very close and beloved friend. We went to watch some movies but the time wasn't right at all. So what we did was having a food tour all over the mall. I had lots of things that I had always wanna try, like the famous pretzel and chicken chop. We didn't try the takoyaki there for my friend here is not very fond of Japanese food. Never mind, I'll treat myself later hehe..

Anyway it was fun. I managed to persuade her to buy a sweater from Orange Sorbet! But she really should thank me cuz that sweater is gorgeous+cool+cute and any other nice thing you could say about a sweater (well she did thank me later before we go back yeah!). Then we ran to McDonald's booth to get some McFlurry, but we arrived there just when they were closing the place. So, yeah, we're going down.

I'm at my room now, and would love to take a nice shower before going to bed. But before that dearie, I wanna tell you that I really like One Republic and The Script. I got addicted to their song and lyrics. Let's have one of my favorite lyrics down here:

Pancake Crave

Hi Qwerty!

I haven't eat anything yet.

Today I deal with some SSPN stuff. I received a letter about deposition, but the card hasn't arrived yet. Isn't that weird? I think it is as weird as Willy Wonka fused with the Mad Hatter and seasoned with a little Flint Lockwood. Where's my card?? I need a copy of it for my sister's sake!

I tried to call but the lines are busy. That's ok, cuz they have a useful-looking forum. I've posted my question there and hoped that they'll reply soon enough. I thin the forum is a good idea as an alternative to the phone call. Whoever suggested to open the forum is a rare genius!

Ok, gonna continue with the day! :)

The Tower of Babble

Dear Qwerty,

Why can't you speak?

Never mind that, I like you the way you are. I think people are more open to to those who don't talk. Like Green in The King's Fool, he never spoke a word, and that has made Perry feel comfortable to talk to him. Just the way I am to you. Anne Frank loves to talk to the papers in her diary, and I love to talk to you (a humanoid keyboard lol). I've imagined you as a person since the first day I wrote to you. Hope you won't mind that.. :)

Qwerty, a light bulb suddenly appear above my head (if u can actually see). I imagine waking up tomorrow to find out that you wrote back to me. Well, that's creepy and exciting at the same time. I seriously need to set some borders to my imagination. It strays uncontrollably sometimes.

OK, I had nothing else to say and would like to take a nice shower.

Bye! :)

P/s: I wanna bake peach pie too during the holiday!

Holiday Project

Hi Qwerty,

It's been quite long.

I've been planning for the holiday, which will come very soon! :)

I want to:

1. Bake lots of Portuguese Tart (have to make puff-pastry first!)

2. Plant cherry tomatoes, plums, and cherries (right now I'm collecting the seeds)

3. Make bento for both my little brother

4. Bake a cake from Flavours magazine (I have bought a jar of nice strawberry jam)

5. Try to bake some scones (I've found a reliable-looking recipe)

6. Spend my day doing housework (like gardening, cooking etc)

7. Make peach jelly

8. Cook lots of things from the old, large cookbook! (I think one of my brothers will help me)

Oh, there's just so many other things I would like to do! But for now, I prefer to sit back with my book (right now am reading Enchanted Glass by Diana Wynne Jonnes, I can hardly put it down) while sipping an enormous mug of hot green tea. Life!

FanFiction

Good afternoon dear Qwerty,

Do you enjoy fanfiction?

Lately, I had got back to my old hobby of reading fanfiction. I love good fanfiction. The one that is well written and well told. I was in Fanfiction.net not for the story, but for the breathtakingly beautiful writings that can be found there. I would usually head for original storyboards, which are found in great abundance under the section 'Fairytales' and 'Vampires'. It's not like I really like vampy-themes, but yeah, as mentioned, the got lots of original stories. For Fairytales I would go for the retellings at most of the time. Those who are committed to retell the tales usually have their own unique writing styles that are incomparable. I like it when a writer begins his/her chapter with quotes or originally-composed short poems. It gives a hint of the theme while tempering the atmosphere.

But not all fanfictions are as beautiful. Some has a good story in their mind, but failed to lay it out effectively. Some just want to tell their stories, and end up in head-aching punctuation and grammar mistakes. I hate it most when the story lacks punctuation or was written as if they were under the alcohol. It's so frustrating. And I wonder why such writings got so many positive reviews, but I certainly wont be one of the reviewers.

Sounds of Skylight

Dearest Qwerty,

Listen.

All around there had been only piano and violins, but when the first drum hits the note, I felt as if some strange sensation fluttered across my veins. I would selfishly compare it to a butterfly that first spread its wings out of the cocoon and set to fly. The kind of feeling that ignites something in your heart and mind, like a spark that brings delight and merriment to the melodies. I was surprised at how the percussion had fared with my feelings, for in my whole life I had only been awed by the tinkles of the piano. But still I love piano, and will always love it more than anything else that makes sounds.

Shisha

Dear Qwerty,

Yesterday there was an opening ceremony for TOT at USM stadium. I went there to support my friend who participated in the ceremony. There was some fireworks display too. The band is very impressive. However those are not the points here. The point is, after the o.c, me and my friend (and her old friend from Health Campus) went to have dinner around Ivory Plaza.

We headed for our favourite spot. When we arrived there, I saw many strange device on each of the seated table. It was tall and appeared to have some intricate carvings of Thai-like pattern. You know the kind of pattern you see on tomyam ads or commercial? That's what they look like. At first I thought that it was some special decoration for tomyam bowls, but then I saw some smokes puffing out the mouth of one of the customers, and he/she (I cant remember) was holding a pipe that extend from the tall device. Whoa, I knew exactly that those 'tomyam decoration' were actually shisha. A friend told me about it before. But before this we only caught some old Arabs enjoying them; yesterday were youngsters like us.

I tried to be positive about it. Tried to respect others' interest. But I just can't stand the smoke, it was strangely sweet and horrible at the same time. It made me feel dizzy, and I felt like I can throw out any time. But what was more appalling was the expression of the people who were enjoying it yesterday, they look, I beg your pardon, as if they had taken some drugs, as if they are under the ecstasy. I'm sorry, but that was what I thought they look like.

I was lucky for not eating anything there, or I would not be able to even touch the food. Only the new friend had her dinner, for she had not been eating since the afternoon. I wish one day I would be able to feel less annoyed at shisha, I cant risk wearing the disgusted face besides them. They might took it as an insult.

Cherry Plucking

My Dear Qwerty,

I am a professional cherry-plucker.

Today (and many days before) I went for cherry plucking again. There are some cherry trees growing healthily around the Desasiswa, and they generously bear red, sweet fruits for me (lol). But today they are more generous than ever, for I have got more than 40 cherries to bring back to my room!

Perhaps it is the cherry season now, for there are just too many red cherries on the trees that I had felt so tired just to pick them. As soon as I got into my room, I washed them and pop them into my mouth. Well, trust me, those cherries are sickly sweet! And please, I'm not trying to exaggerate, but they seriously smell as if some rose water was sprinkled on them. My sweeter-than-cherry friend helped me to pick the cherries; she sure have the eyes of an eagle! She promised to upload the harvests pics to FB, but will she really do it?

But then again, there are competitors now. I mean, the other students who had been watching us plucking the cherries all along are now making their move to pluck their own cherries too! Hmm..I hate competitors!

Oh, it's only 9.55 but I am already feeling sleepy. I wanna go to bed now.

Nytes Qwerty..

Marigold jelly and Red Plum

Dear Qwerty,

It's really easy to type your name; I just have to slide my finger from 'Q' to 'Y'.

Anyway I feel like talking about jelly and plums today. During Mandarin test today, I suddenly craved for Marigold jelly; the one that has (canned) real whole fruit floating in the middle. So right after the test, I headed to the Kedai Mahasiswa which usually have them displayed in the fridge. However, guess what, I went there only to be disappointed. But no fuss, cuz by the end of the day I got it from Seven11(lol). I got the one with mandarin fruit inside. Well, to say (and to exaggerate), that was SCRUMPTIOUS. It's nice to have it after an overly sunny day and a brain-squashing test. I prefer the peach, but mandarin is always comparable. Everyone should try it (Marigold should pay me for the promotion)!

The second sweet thing is the red plums! O.m.g, I don't know if I suddenly have talent to choose the right plums, but the plums that I bought on last Saturday were the best plums I ever had. The fruit is blood-red, bright and frosty at the surface. I took the ones that are soft and elastic when I press it lightly with my finger. And from the net I have learned that good fruits are the ones that smell like sweet fruit. So with the sight and smell as guidelines, I took four of the plump red plums. Believe me, they are so sinfully juicy and sweet, I ate three of them while watching a movie. The last were saved for the next day, just in case I have a red-plum-dream in the night and wake up craving for it (lol).

during the sem break, I wanna make some peach jellies and plant a plum tree. Can plums grow in Malaysia? Hopefully.. (the power of believing!)

Looking forward to buy more plums this week. Bye Q!

A Bright, Sunny Day

Hi Qwerty,

It seems like good things happens when you are happy!

Well, the good thing is, i managed to retrieve my lenses. Yay! I found it at one of the shop that I went the day it was lost. Yesterday i went to the mall again, hoping to find my lenses again. And hey, they keep it for me! I was so relieved yesterday, for my RM84 has fly back to me (lol). Anyway, I feel so grateful for that. Not because of the money, but because it means that my life-hypotheses are proved:

1. Life is wonderful when you think it is.

2. The power of believe can create miracles.

Am i exaggerating? It sounds so (lol). But those are my hypotheses, and it's my obligation to prove it.

Alhamdulillah! :)

New day

Hello Qwerty,

Today is a new day.

It's a chance for me to have a new start. I had just realised that final exam is only a month from now. I must do my best in the exam. I had forgiven all my mistakes, and perhaps the people around me too. From today, I wanna be a better person and i will try my best not to hate or dislike anybody. I want to learn to accept people as they are, and believe that we're all just human beings that are not perfect. I belief that there's more good side than the bad side of a person, which includes myself. I believe too that all that had happened before are meant to teach me the lesson I have learnt today.

I wanna be a better person. :)

Cuz we all have a bad day

Dear Qwerty,

I've lost something again.

Today it's my lenses plus the solution. They cost me RM84. I don't know how I come to lose it. There are a few hypothesis, but I rather keep them to myself. However I've come to a conclusion, I think I should go on by myself again. This sem i am accompanied too much of my time. I had become too dependent on people. I rely on people to take care of myself and my stuff. Therefore, I should get back to the norm, where I should rely and trust only myself. This way, I could manage and follow my timetable efficiently, while being more alert to the events that occur around me, as well as the environment. It's not that I'm trying to be a loner, I just wanna be more independent.

Back to the missing stuff, its RM46(Dictionary) + RM490(phone) + RM84(lens set) = RM620 disappeared into thin air in about a month. Or is it less than a month? I don't know, don't make me count cuz I'm such a dunce with math (no lol for today). I don't know how to describe this feeling, it's not anger, it's not hatred, it's not a disappointment; I guess it's a smooth mixture of them all. I wish I could just break down and let it go, but it sounds so stupid that I cancelled it at middle-half. I'm a student who need to prove something to the people who go against my choice for this course. I musn't let such silly things get into my way. Ganbatte! \('o')/